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leaving these behind in 2018, a very strange year

here's to hoping that i will be less dumb in 2019

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released December 28, 2018

22/40 songs written and recorded in my apartment january 2018-december 2018

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Track Name: just business
let’s keep in mind things like this happen all the time
i don’t see a reason to state the plan to change the season
we’re professionals with suits and ties and broken bones
i won’t say it irks me to see that you’re playing dirty
call off all the shots, i drive my car to the parking lot
can’t see the signs, turn around and take the night

this isn’t trying to fail
failing to try
i miss my—
i miss the details

just step out of town, it’s enough to find the ground
you don’t have to say it, we bought the scale to weigh it
waves won’t wash away the tops of peaks, the light of day
but at least they try, someone you wish i was like
don’t hold the phone it’s in the past, it’s all alone
buried under things we said, or worse the things we meant

this isn’t what i really wanted
want it to end
i miss when—
i missed it again

take the last life vest i’ll wind up like the rest
but it’s what i want to untangle all the knots
when you cross the line do not look behind
i’ll be a skeleton growing smaller with the distance
Track Name: waste your time
you look like someone who could ruin my life
i would let you if you wanted to waste your time
you look like someone who could win in a fight
i would let you if that was the storyline

you look like someone who could connect the dots
i would let you if you wanted a cheap shot
you look like someone who could hear my thoughts
i would let you if you promised to take off

you look like someone who could let it go
i would let you if you were happy on your own
you look like someone who could let it go
i would let you if you were happy on your own

you look like someone who could change my mind
i would let you if you told me it was a sign
you look like someone who could ruin my life
i would let you if you wanted to waste your time
Track Name: you're heavy for something that's supposed to be light
i feel so cheaply
so discreetly
that i had no idea

i speak so freely
words with meaning
as if you’ll overhear

no one will mention
heavy first impressions
the focus of attention
when there’s an obvious progression

you play too honest
it’s ironic
only if we don’t explain

you wait the longest
like you promised
while history was exchanged

no one can question
if there’s nothing in suspension
restricted self-expression
enough weight to break the tension
Track Name: statistically speaking
everybody’s out to get me
i’ve seen them lurking around
i wish you’d just say something
even just to let me down

i don’t believe
maybe it’s me
or maybe
it’s just who i’m becoming
it’s funny
i’m lonely
looks the numbers won

i can feel them read my mind
it’s hard enough to write the pages
hold it back deep inside
so no one else will be disappointed

i don’t believe
i don’t believe in me
or maybe
i don’t believe in who i’m becoming
it’s funny
i’d agree
that it always was
Track Name: half empty 2
the car drives off in the distance
i wash my hands in the sink
they watch the clouds become planets
in the time it takes to blink

the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up

the tree grows up when it wants to
it’s incapable of love
they say the waves never even move
you float in the lake for a month

the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up
the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up
Track Name: obituary
remember me in death like you remembered me in life
almost not at all except a random tuesday night
while you were cooking dinner and watching something light
and just for second, for a brief moment in time
i suddenly existed in the clutter of your mind
then i was gone like the day into the night

remember me in death like you remembered me in life
a name with a face just for you to classify
as someone you had known or someone you passed by
a couple of characteristics that fit the paradigm
but at least it’s nice to know i had been defined
just to be abandoned in the past and left behind

there’s nowhere to go from here
there’s nowhere to go
there’s nowhere to go from here
there’s nowhere to go

(everywhere i’ve been
i’ve tried to leave
i’ll try again just to see)

except the unknown
but i just don’t know

remember me in death like you remembered me in life
a collection of the people i have loved all intertwined
a reflection of your faults you refuse to recognize
words left unsaid but have always been implied
remember me in death like you remembered me in life
one day i was born and one day i will have died
Track Name: five and a half feet under
wish i could believe it
wish i felt needed
wish i took the time
to find my place in line

should have watered the plant, it’s falling down on itself
should have told it that it could be anything it wanted

wish we talked like friends
wish things didn’t end
wish i understood
how to do the things i should

should have watered the plant, it’s falling down on itself
should have told it that it could be anything it wanted

as long as its roots are in the ground
Track Name: monster
can i say i’m broken hearted
if i’ve got a bloody fist?
you’ve got the scars to prove it
you can tell me i’m selfish

can i say that i’m terrified
if i’m the monster this time?
you’ve got it in your mind
don’t tell me i already know why

i’ve become the missing summer sun
gone for months turning into no one

can i tell you how i’m feeling?
too much but at least i’m dealing
i don’t want to feel a damn thing
i want to know where i’m standing

i’ve become the missing summer sun
gone for months turning into no one
Track Name: happy birthday
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight years old
and i was not myself i was something else
a reason to be a reason unreasonable

i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night in the cold
when you were not yourself you were somewhere else
on your way back on your way back you know your way back home

the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
Track Name: thank god
all i can say is thank god i was never born
all i can do is hope to god it’s not my turn
i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die
i’ve seen the sun so clean with nothing to deny
with nothing to reply, with nothing to get by

if it hurts to love who made it up who made it up
if it hurts to love why is it us why is it us
if it hurts to love if it hurts to love

all i can say is thank god i was never born
all i can do is hope to god i’m not the storm
i want to feel the heat, want to feel the heat, want to feel the heat
i’ve heard the moon say words that no one can repeat
that no one wants to speak, that no one wants to keep

if it hurts to live who would want this who would want this
if it hurts to live let’s just forget let’s just forget
if it hurts to live if it hurts to live

all i can say is thank god i was never born
not in this life, not in the next time or before
Track Name: drowning
under the ocean
there’s a city unnamed
i’ve been there before
i’ll be there again

under the ocean
nobody cares
about where you’re going
or where you’ve been

under the ocean
i heard my very own name
for the first time
i haven’t heard it again

under the ocean
everything’s lost
everyone sinks
when you ask how they’ve been

if only i could breathe underwater
Track Name: cowards never live, cowards never die
when my heart pumps i don’t feel it i just feel dead that’s for sure
so what if i’m a coward at least i’m never gonna get hurt
i stay as cold as i can can’t come closer, i’ll get colder
maybe i’ll move to tacoma or oklahoma and start over

just a fading face in a placid place
where the sun sets everyday

when my names called i can’t hear it can’t distinguish where to go
who cares if i’m a no show i don’t have to walk home alone
i’m so scared of silence something sinking in my skin
maybe i’ll take break from muscle aches and die again

just a fading face in a placid place
where the sun sets everyday
Track Name: for the birds
am i sand to you?
a way to pass the time

just an observation, conversation
i am having with the center of the universe
they don’t care if i’m for the birds
or what i’m worth and what i’m not
all the things i forgot
while listening to interesting information
in the station i was waiting
for creation of transportation
to get to where i’m going
i was hoping you could show me

i am becoming that which i am becoming

can anybody hear me?
is anybody there?
is anybody listening?
does anybody care?
Track Name: race to the start
i don’t want to be around
when i finally find myself
for the first time

never seem to recognize
the things i lose and then i find
when they hurt me

and make me feel things
i’d rather forget myself completely

i don’t want to bleed my blood
and know the things that make me up
i wish i was empty

you could fill me up with doubt
shove me in and push me out
i would mind it

to know i’m useless
at least i wasn’t wrong again

take a long drive in the car, i’m sure it’s safe
take a long drive in the car, you’ll win the race
when you win, i’ll be at home watching tv
and i won’t clap cuz i was rooting for the other team

you know i mean
i never drove at the right speed
Track Name: second song
i wonder how you feel tonight as you’re alone, or maybe you’re not, i wouldn’t know
you should probably be asleep, or at least pretend to try, i thought that you forgot all about me
it’s good to know we’re good, after all that’s said and done, it’s nice to hear the words as late as they are

i will always meet you there
even in the dark
i will always meet you there
even when it’s not
when it’s not

i know just what you think, i’m hard to keep afloat but i’m always walking towards the water
you always speak the truth except when i’m around, i said i understand but i’m just like you
it’s good to hear your voice from the other side, although you don’t say anything

i will always meet you there
even in the dark
i will always meet you there
even when it’s not
when it’s not

it’s good to know that we can always have the past and any time you want i’ll go right back
Track Name: could (wouldn't)
you could be the truth if you tried
i promise i would notice
saw it once in the way that you walked
and it’s been predicted

we’ll never know we’ll never know
we’ll never know what we know
we’ll never know we’ll never know
we’ll never know what we don’t

we might be the means to an end
no one has to say it
we can lay right down on the lawn
i’ll pretend it’s unscripted

you’ll never know you’ll never know
you’ll never know what i know
you’ll never know you’ll never know
you’ll never know what you don’t
Track Name: endless endings
can you still see through my eyes?
everything that lives and dies
don’t look when i look in the mirror
no one stays here
no one stays here

someday i’ll find a door
that leads to an endless shore
where no one can trace my steps
on my way back west

can you feel the cold around us
it drains me then fills me back up
how can the sun stay up there
i am nowhere
i am nowhere

someday i’ll find a crack
that leads me all the way back
where no one heard my name
or of all of my mistakes

someday i’ll find a way
so no one can see my face
Track Name: blur
i can’t catch your shape
speeding by on the other train
you’re a blur i can’t take
anywhere i go i stay

hold the flame so you get burned
all the clocks on the wall have turned
and they’re saying they got hurt
and won’t tell me how time works

i can’t tell a lie
except for all those other times
but at least i don’t deny
the mess is made it’s out inside
i can’t take defeat
knowing that the sun knows me
you have me on repeat
when you want it’s hard to see
when you want it’s hard to be

hold the flame so you get burned
all the clocks on the wall have turned
and they’re saying they got hurt
and won’t tell me how time works
not a word
Track Name: underboxesbehinddoorsinsidepocketswithindrawers
don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do, and i take another breath
just to stand here a little longer
i long for

back then i didn’t think how the years
extend until we’re only souvenirs
from when our hearts were still separate
i’m desperate

to find something deep inside myself
that might lead me to become something else
i’d like to stand here a little longer
if you want to

but i can’t live like this anymore
under boxes, behind doors
inside pockets, within drawers
nothing like it was before
but i can’t live like this anymore
under boxes, behind doors
inside pockets within drawers
nothing like it was before

don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do and i want to breathe again
just to know that i can stand
on my own

don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do and i want to breathe again
just to know that i can stand
on my own
Track Name: 9:45 am
i want to know you
i don’t want you to know me too
i want to know you
i don’t want you to know me too

everybody says that i’m fine
everyday i feel like i’m losing my mind
blame the position of planets
but it turns out it was my decision
who let me make my choice
can’t read the background noise

i want to know me
i want to know the things i’ve seen
i want to know me
i want to know the things i’ve seen

please keep me around for awhile
i don’t know where else to go
i don’t want to let you down
i’ll stay for as long as i can
for as long i can
i don’t know how long it’s been

i’d like to know that
you won’t ever know me back
i’d like to know that
you won’t ever know me back
Track Name: we can't both be crazy
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way

i know all the facts, i forget them fast
i forget the fix, i break it back
i beg to break, at least to know
i know i've made it hard too, it's hard to show

(sirens)
Track Name: that way
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?

got my leg chained to a park bench in the city
so when i got home i didn’t even recognize the light when it hit me
oh how things have changed looks like you’ve been running to keep it that way
someday someday you’ll understand the things i say

tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?

i left my heart back where i gave away the way i felt
the water was blue my hands were too and i didn’t know what to do with myself
if you saw the broken sounds the mess i made would bring you down
promise me when the curtain falls you won’t be in the crowd

tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?

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