1. |
just business
03:29
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let’s keep in mind things like this happen all the time
i don’t see a reason to state the plan to change the season
we’re professionals with suits and ties and broken bones
i won’t say it irks me to see that you’re playing dirty
call off all the shots, i drive my car to the parking lot
can’t see the signs, turn around and take the night
this isn’t trying to fail
failing to try
i miss my—
i miss the details
just step out of town, it’s enough to find the ground
you don’t have to say it, we bought the scale to weigh it
waves won’t wash away the tops of peaks, the light of day
but at least they try, someone you wish i was like
don’t hold the phone it’s in the past, it’s all alone
buried under things we said, or worse the things we meant
this isn’t what i really wanted
want it to end
i miss when—
i missed it again
take the last life vest i’ll wind up like the rest
but it’s what i want to untangle all the knots
when you cross the line do not look behind
i’ll be a skeleton growing smaller with the distance
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2. |
waste your time
03:42
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you look like someone who could ruin my life
i would let you if you wanted to waste your time
you look like someone who could win in a fight
i would let you if that was the storyline
you look like someone who could connect the dots
i would let you if you wanted a cheap shot
you look like someone who could hear my thoughts
i would let you if you promised to take off
you look like someone who could let it go
i would let you if you were happy on your own
you look like someone who could let it go
i would let you if you were happy on your own
you look like someone who could change my mind
i would let you if you told me it was a sign
you look like someone who could ruin my life
i would let you if you wanted to waste your time
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3. |
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i feel so cheaply
so discreetly
that i had no idea
i speak so freely
words with meaning
as if you’ll overhear
no one will mention
heavy first impressions
the focus of attention
when there’s an obvious progression
you play too honest
it’s ironic
only if we don’t explain
you wait the longest
like you promised
while history was exchanged
no one can question
if there’s nothing in suspension
restricted self-expression
enough weight to break the tension
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4. |
statistically speaking
01:39
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everybody’s out to get me
i’ve seen them lurking around
i wish you’d just say something
even just to let me down
i don’t believe
maybe it’s me
or maybe
it’s just who i’m becoming
it’s funny
i’m lonely
looks the numbers won
i can feel them read my mind
it’s hard enough to write the pages
hold it back deep inside
so no one else will be disappointed
i don’t believe
i don’t believe in me
or maybe
i don’t believe in who i’m becoming
it’s funny
i’d agree
that it always was
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5. |
half empty 2
01:29
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the car drives off in the distance
i wash my hands in the sink
they watch the clouds become planets
in the time it takes to blink
the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up
the tree grows up when it wants to
it’s incapable of love
they say the waves never even move
you float in the lake for a month
the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up
the water leaks out from the bottom of my cup
it’s always half empty even when i fill it up
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6. |
obituary
03:02
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remember me in death like you remembered me in life
almost not at all except a random tuesday night
while you were cooking dinner and watching something light
and just for second, for a brief moment in time
i suddenly existed in the clutter of your mind
then i was gone like the day into the night
remember me in death like you remembered me in life
a name with a face just for you to classify
as someone you had known or someone you passed by
a couple of characteristics that fit the paradigm
but at least it’s nice to know i had been defined
just to be abandoned in the past and left behind
there’s nowhere to go from here
there’s nowhere to go
there’s nowhere to go from here
there’s nowhere to go
(everywhere i’ve been
i’ve tried to leave
i’ll try again just to see)
except the unknown
but i just don’t know
remember me in death like you remembered me in life
a collection of the people i have loved all intertwined
a reflection of your faults you refuse to recognize
words left unsaid but have always been implied
remember me in death like you remembered me in life
one day i was born and one day i will have died
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wish i could believe it
wish i felt needed
wish i took the time
to find my place in line
should have watered the plant, it’s falling down on itself
should have told it that it could be anything it wanted
wish we talked like friends
wish things didn’t end
wish i understood
how to do the things i should
should have watered the plant, it’s falling down on itself
should have told it that it could be anything it wanted
as long as its roots are in the ground
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8. |
monster
02:40
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can i say i’m broken hearted
if i’ve got a bloody fist?
you’ve got the scars to prove it
you can tell me i’m selfish
can i say that i’m terrified
if i’m the monster this time?
you’ve got it in your mind
don’t tell me i already know why
i’ve become the missing summer sun
gone for months turning into no one
can i tell you how i’m feeling?
too much but at least i’m dealing
i don’t want to feel a damn thing
i want to know where i’m standing
i’ve become the missing summer sun
gone for months turning into no one
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9. |
happy birthday
03:26
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i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight
i want to stay inside of your body like the piece of gum you swallowed when you were eight years old
and i was not myself i was something else
a reason to be a reason unreasonable
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night
i want to be outside of your body like an abandoned bus stop in the middle of the night in the cold
when you were not yourself you were somewhere else
on your way back on your way back you know your way back home
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
the people i love don’t hate me enough
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10. |
thank god
03:07
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all i can say is thank god i was never born
all i can do is hope to god it’s not my turn
i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die
i’ve seen the sun so clean with nothing to deny
with nothing to reply, with nothing to get by
if it hurts to love who made it up who made it up
if it hurts to love why is it us why is it us
if it hurts to love if it hurts to love
all i can say is thank god i was never born
all i can do is hope to god i’m not the storm
i want to feel the heat, want to feel the heat, want to feel the heat
i’ve heard the moon say words that no one can repeat
that no one wants to speak, that no one wants to keep
if it hurts to live who would want this who would want this
if it hurts to live let’s just forget let’s just forget
if it hurts to live if it hurts to live
all i can say is thank god i was never born
not in this life, not in the next time or before
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11. |
drowning
03:04
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under the ocean
there’s a city unnamed
i’ve been there before
i’ll be there again
under the ocean
nobody cares
about where you’re going
or where you’ve been
under the ocean
i heard my very own name
for the first time
i haven’t heard it again
under the ocean
everything’s lost
everyone sinks
when you ask how they’ve been
if only i could breathe underwater
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12. |
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when my heart pumps i don’t feel it i just feel dead that’s for sure
so what if i’m a coward at least i’m never gonna get hurt
i stay as cold as i can can’t come closer, i’ll get colder
maybe i’ll move to tacoma or oklahoma and start over
just a fading face in a placid place
where the sun sets everyday
when my names called i can’t hear it can’t distinguish where to go
who cares if i’m a no show i don’t have to walk home alone
i’m so scared of silence something sinking in my skin
maybe i’ll take break from muscle aches and die again
just a fading face in a placid place
where the sun sets everyday
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13. |
for the birds
02:15
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am i sand to you?
a way to pass the time
just an observation, conversation
i am having with the center of the universe
they don’t care if i’m for the birds
or what i’m worth and what i’m not
all the things i forgot
while listening to interesting information
in the station i was waiting
for creation of transportation
to get to where i’m going
i was hoping you could show me
i am becoming that which i am becoming
can anybody hear me?
is anybody there?
is anybody listening?
does anybody care?
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14. |
race to the start
02:12
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i don’t want to be around
when i finally find myself
for the first time
never seem to recognize
the things i lose and then i find
when they hurt me
and make me feel things
i’d rather forget myself completely
i don’t want to bleed my blood
and know the things that make me up
i wish i was empty
you could fill me up with doubt
shove me in and push me out
i would mind it
to know i’m useless
at least i wasn’t wrong again
take a long drive in the car, i’m sure it’s safe
take a long drive in the car, you’ll win the race
when you win, i’ll be at home watching tv
and i won’t clap cuz i was rooting for the other team
you know i mean
i never drove at the right speed
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15. |
second song
03:22
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i wonder how you feel tonight as you’re alone, or maybe you’re not, i wouldn’t know
you should probably be asleep, or at least pretend to try, i thought that you forgot all about me
it’s good to know we’re good, after all that’s said and done, it’s nice to hear the words as late as they are
i will always meet you there
even in the dark
i will always meet you there
even when it’s not
when it’s not
i know just what you think, i’m hard to keep afloat but i’m always walking towards the water
you always speak the truth except when i’m around, i said i understand but i’m just like you
it’s good to hear your voice from the other side, although you don’t say anything
i will always meet you there
even in the dark
i will always meet you there
even when it’s not
when it’s not
it’s good to know that we can always have the past and any time you want i’ll go right back
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16. |
could (wouldn't)
01:41
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you could be the truth if you tried
i promise i would notice
saw it once in the way that you walked
and it’s been predicted
we’ll never know we’ll never know
we’ll never know what we know
we’ll never know we’ll never know
we’ll never know what we don’t
we might be the means to an end
no one has to say it
we can lay right down on the lawn
i’ll pretend it’s unscripted
you’ll never know you’ll never know
you’ll never know what i know
you’ll never know you’ll never know
you’ll never know what you don’t
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17. |
endless endings
04:00
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can you still see through my eyes?
everything that lives and dies
don’t look when i look in the mirror
no one stays here
no one stays here
someday i’ll find a door
that leads to an endless shore
where no one can trace my steps
on my way back west
can you feel the cold around us
it drains me then fills me back up
how can the sun stay up there
i am nowhere
i am nowhere
someday i’ll find a crack
that leads me all the way back
where no one heard my name
or of all of my mistakes
someday i’ll find a way
so no one can see my face
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18. |
blur
02:49
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i can’t catch your shape
speeding by on the other train
you’re a blur i can’t take
anywhere i go i stay
hold the flame so you get burned
all the clocks on the wall have turned
and they’re saying they got hurt
and won’t tell me how time works
i can’t tell a lie
except for all those other times
but at least i don’t deny
the mess is made it’s out inside
i can’t take defeat
knowing that the sun knows me
you have me on repeat
when you want it’s hard to see
when you want it’s hard to be
hold the flame so you get burned
all the clocks on the wall have turned
and they’re saying they got hurt
and won’t tell me how time works
not a word
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19. |
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don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do, and i take another breath
just to stand here a little longer
i long for
back then i didn’t think how the years
extend until we’re only souvenirs
from when our hearts were still separate
i’m desperate
to find something deep inside myself
that might lead me to become something else
i’d like to stand here a little longer
if you want to
but i can’t live like this anymore
under boxes, behind doors
inside pockets, within drawers
nothing like it was before
but i can’t live like this anymore
under boxes, behind doors
inside pockets within drawers
nothing like it was before
don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do and i want to breathe again
just to know that i can stand
on my own
don’t you feel like you’re in over your head?
i do and i want to breathe again
just to know that i can stand
on my own
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20. |
9:45 am
03:13
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i want to know you
i don’t want you to know me too
i want to know you
i don’t want you to know me too
everybody says that i’m fine
everyday i feel like i’m losing my mind
blame the position of planets
but it turns out it was my decision
who let me make my choice
can’t read the background noise
i want to know me
i want to know the things i’ve seen
i want to know me
i want to know the things i’ve seen
please keep me around for awhile
i don’t know where else to go
i don’t want to let you down
i’ll stay for as long as i can
for as long i can
i don’t know how long it’s been
i’d like to know that
you won’t ever know me back
i’d like to know that
you won’t ever know me back
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21. |
we can't both be crazy
01:29
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i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know i'm insane cuz you don't feel the same way
i know all the facts, i forget them fast
i forget the fix, i break it back
i beg to break, at least to know
i know i've made it hard too, it's hard to show
(sirens)
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22. |
that way
03:56
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tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
got my leg chained to a park bench in the city
so when i got home i didn’t even recognize the light when it hit me
oh how things have changed looks like you’ve been running to keep it that way
someday someday you’ll understand the things i say
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
i left my heart back where i gave away the way i felt
the water was blue my hands were too and i didn’t know what to do with myself
if you saw the broken sounds the mess i made would bring you down
promise me when the curtain falls you won’t be in the crowd
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
tried to let you go to the wind where you belong
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
did you feel me did you feel me holding on?
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