1. |
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i sent you a message on the internet, glad we could connect
you liked my post i posted on the web, glad we could connect
i saw you somewhere, i wasn't there, i was in my bed
i'm lost in my head, i wish instead i'd just use mapquest
i can't say anything cuz you heard it on the internet
i can't say anything cuz you heard it from a hypocrite
change all of my passwords
i got your email tagged it "special" and forgot about it
i'll tell you i responded but didn't press send cuz i'm an idiot
we've got so much in common like mutual friends, have we even met? here's a link to my website where you can find all of my information
i can't say anything cuz you heard it on the internet
i can't say anything cuz you heard it from a hypocrite
delete all of my accounts
i sent you a message on the internet, glad we could connect
you liked my post i posted on the web, glad we could connect
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2. |
friends forever
03:08
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sunday evening in the springtime just like this time last year
when you change your tone i wonder if i still belong here
your smile stings when i’m caught in between and don’t disappear
i know the difference between the things that scare me and the things that i fear
when will you tell me who i am to you
am i anything to anyone
when will you tell me who i am to you
just tell me that you hate my guts
every time i walk away i walk right into where you’re going
but when i want to see you, you’re busy so i wind up smoking
and when you smoke, i say “no, not tonight, not while it’s snowing”
so we don’t talk for months and then you ask me where the wind is blowing
when will you tell me who i am to you
am i anything to anyone
when will you tell me who i am to you
just tell me that you hate my guts
when will you tell me who i am to you
am i anything to anyone
when will you tell me who i am to
you just tell me that you hate my guts
(are we gonna be friends forever)
sunday evening in the springtime just like this time last year
you won’t say a thing and i won’t say anything either
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3. |
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they can think you’re interesting but they won’t love you
they will use you like a flashlight when they want to
you will only ever see it in reflections
and they’ll tell you all you want is validation
they can make you rethink all of your decisions
only time can tell but you never want to listen
you will only find the questions you can’t answer
and they’ll tell you all the light comes from the lanterns
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
you are a character and you don’t even know the plot
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
they can make you out to be some kind of evil
they will convince you when they show you your own demons
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
you are a character and you don’t even know the plot
you are a character in a film that you can’t watch
(they can think you’re interesting but they won’t love you
they will use you like a flashlight when they want to
they can make you rethink all of your decisions
only time can tell but you never want to listen)
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4. |
trying
02:40
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i gave out all of your contact information
just in case someone was out there trying to reach you
and somehow lost your number
i think he's going under
i try so hard to let it go
i try so hard to lose control
i try so hard to be alone
i try so hard just so you know
i trace the clouds with the tip of my index finger
they yell at me when i tape them down to the paper
and we don't disagree
they just fucking hate me
i try so hard to let it go
i try so hard to lose control
i try so hard to be alone
i try so hard just so you know
you've got a way with words and in a way it hurts
you've got a way with words and in a way it hurts
i try so hard to let it go
i try so hard to lose control
i try so hard to be alone
i try so hard just so you know
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5. |
numb
01:51
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it feels so numb in so many ways
i think about everything every single day
i get tired whenever i'm awake
and it's funny that nothing's really changed
i don't want to get by
i want things to be different this time
i don't want to get by
i want things to be different this time
when it rings i know it's gone
i spend my time turning off and on
it always hurts to think at all
i wonder if it'll last as long
i don't want to get by
i want things to be different this time
i don't want to get by
i want things to be different this time
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6. |
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i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
we watch it fall to its core
pretend that we're different from before
we count how fast the hours run
hide from all the things that we've done
it's strange that we don't talk like that
i'd give you all the pain i have
if you could give it back to me
and say goodbye the next time you leave
i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
we spend our time cleaning up
say that it doesn't hurt that much
we spin around looking for space
take for granted all that we take
it's strange that you don't hate me now
i watched the sun when it came down
so it wouldn't think i left too soon
doing my best to think of you
i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
i've made my decisions and i've learned how to live with them
i've made my decisions
i'd take all the pain that you're in
if you could take all the things to forget
i've learned how to live without them
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7. |
ghost
01:35
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you’re a ghost i see right through
when you move i look away
i don’t know how i’m still surprised
when you lie i feel the weight
it’s not my fault that i feel something
every time you tell me nothing
it’s not my fault that i feel something
every time you tell me nothing
turn the volume up when it’s too loud
i look around you’re never home
fall in love with the way you feel
it’s all too real or all a joke
it’s not my fault that i feel something
every time you tell me nothing
it’s not my fault that i feel something
every time you tell me nothing
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8. |
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don't forget about the footsteps
i wanna be the only one left
you leave me hanging by my shoelace
i take the elevator down instead
meet me outside on the first day
none of it will mean anything
you leave me hanging on my lighter
i ignore everything that you say
i will be in the background for as long as you let me
i will be in the background even though i can't breathe
walk away at the corner
you've always been one to turn
i don't hang out any longer
i don't wanna be the only one left
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9. |
late capitalism
02:57
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how long do you think we have until we can't see the edge
and everything looks exactly the same and all of it's bad
how long can i play the same chords how long until nothing works
and i refuse to replace the parts that i didn't order
i walk faster just to get ahead
i know that makes me so selfish
i walk faster just to get ahead
i know that makes me so selfish
how long can we play these games without one of us winning
i’d rather not lose but i’d do anything you want me to
i walk faster just to get ahead
i know that makes me so selfish
i walk faster just to get ahead
i know that makes me so selfish
i slow down just to take a breath
i give up since there’s nothing left
i slow down just to take a breath
i give up since there’s nothing left
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10. |
those golden days
02:03
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walking through your old neighborhood
i wonder what it’s like to feel good
everybody says that it’s great
every time i see your name
i think back to those golden days
when everything was in black and white
the light stays on the whole night
and i swear that it won’t change
and nothing will stay the same
stepping on of all the cracks
i pray that i can take it back
but no one ever stops to write them down
falling down the empty room
i crawl into the shape of you
nothing in the world to make it break
the dark turns on every night
and i swear that it can change
the light dreams aimlessly
around the place for days
and nothing always walks away
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11. |
in spite
01:37
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i’ve got my hands
and i’ve got my plans
neither of them work right
but maybe that’s just in spite
of me of me of me
i hope i’m happy
you’ve got your feet
and you’ve a place to be
both of them work fine
but maybe that’s just in spite
of you of you of you
i hope you’re happy too
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12. |
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in two more years i’ll be two more years away from trying to die and i’m sorry i tried i’m sorry i tried i’m sorry i tried i’m sorry i tried
in two more years we’ll be two more years away from starting here you could be sincere but then again you’d be someone else completely
in two more years maybe i’ll expand my vocabulary you could say i’m repetitive, repetitive, repetitive, repeating
i don’t know what i should say and i sure don’t know how to say it
maybe i’d just like a minute to figure out some definitions
i don’t know what i should say and i sure don’t know how to say it
maybe i’d like your opinion but i’d rather not see you ever again
it’s been a while since it’s been a while since the last time since and i’m not broken i’m not broken i’m not broken i promise
you told me that i knew me and i disagreed but you guaranteed that i was wrong and my thoughts were unclear
maybe i’ll just go home or maybe i’ll just disappear like i’ve been trying to say like i’ve been trying to say for the last two years
i don’t know what i should say and i sure don’t know how to say it
maybe i’d just like a minute to figure out some definitions
i don’t know what i should say and i sure don’t know how to say it
maybe i’d like your opinion but i’d rather not see you ever again
i will change from my molecules into your memories
you will change how you remember me, you won’t remember me
in two more years we’ll be two more years away from right now it’s all i think about all i think about all i think about all it think about
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13. |
last place
02:06
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everything looks so far from last place
it gets hard to stay distracted
so i put it off until later
i don’t like to lose when i wake up
you let me wear your ribbon that you got for participation
cuz i didn’t even get one that’s just how it happens
it’s so difficult to be by myself
i won’t shut up and there’s no one to tell
so i go to sleep and stay there
i always lose when i wake up
you let me wear your ribbon that you got for participation
cuz i didn’t even get one that’s just how it happens
you let me wear your ribbon that you got for participation
cuz i didn’t even get one that’s just how it happens
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14. |
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it’s strange being on the inside of the
outside, my body is in circles
it’s fine, i see outside the fishbowl
it’s mine, i don’t mind, it’s not like
i can’t see the rest
they’re just like what i see
they’re inside my head
it’s everything to me
we change and things always seem to get
untied, i trip over my feet again
it’s fine, i’ll say something else to them
tonight, i don’t mind, it’s not like
i can walk away
from everything i see
it’s inside my head
it’s everything to me
i can change my thoughts
but i can’t change what they mean
so i pretend that i forgot
and keep staring out blankly
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15. |
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every second we get closer to the credits i’d regret it but it’s pointless to feel that much
if i were older, not a stoner, probably smarter a little calmer than maybe i could fix it up
if we were soldiers, had our ammo and our armor we could fight for all the things we love
but we watch what we cherish fall and perish and tell ourselves it wasn’t up to us
but was it always this way
did i always want to run
away from these things
is it fair for me to want
an easy cliche
somewhere on the waterfront
rewrite the screenplay
give into giving up
every minute we get closer to the finish i don’t sweat it, never admit i cared at all
but i’m a liar, setting fires, just a coward, overpowered and can’t hold my alcohol
if i were better, not an asshole, altogether i could brace myself for the fall
but i’m a jerk and i know it, always blow it and say that it wasn’t my fault
but was it always this way
did i always want to run
away from these things
is it fair for me to want
an easy cliche
somewhere on the waterfront
rewrite the screenplay
give into giving up
give into giving up
give into giving up
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16. |
to be young at the end
03:02
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take it easy
no, take it back
pretend like this is
the best we’ll have
don’t talk all night
we stay out late
i have never seen
what comes after today
we are young
and we are dying
anything else
is the government lying
i can’t swim
so go without me
the world is beautiful
despite humanity
i’ve got my own problems to work out
i can’t help but think it doesn’t really matter
share the blame
with the planet
yes it’s our fault
she’s on her deathbed
take the subway
to the station
take the stairs up
go on vacation
it’s kind of funny
it’s so ironic
we’re so attached
and we’re surrounded
i can’t swim
so go without me
to another island
where we’re all still lonely
i’ve got my own problems to work out
i can’t help but think it doesn’t really matter
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17. |
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everybody wants to know you
like their parents when they're newborn
i don't want to see who you've become
i know it's not the same
don't subject me to this madness
i gave it my all and then some more
i don't want you to see all i've done
and when it ends
we can be on the same airplane
pretending like we're aging old friends
disregarding all the ways we've changed
you look like the television
always on and in position
catching my thoughts bouncing off the walls
it's hard to feel a thing
we don't need a perfect monday
i'm sure things are going your way
you never seemed to notice all the exits in the room
i just wanted to say thank you
for all the things i can't remember
i'm sure i had a good time
i'm sure i had a good time
please call me when you drown
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18. |
in my system
02:14
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watching the clouds go, they don’t know
how much they mean to me
they go and take off, they all talk
about how easy it is to leave
and i want to be just like them
but i don’t have it in my system
and i want to be just like them
but i don’t have it in my system
watching the clouds cry, they don’t hide
from how they really feel
they always disappear, out of here
pretending like they aren’t real
and i want to be just like them
but i don’t have it in my system
and i want to be just like them
but i don’t have it in my system
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19. |
pretend
01:38
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it's so lonely out today
all the things i loved gave way
where do i decide my fate
i'll take the train there in the morning
everyone is turning
into something else
i don't want to be myself
is it just coincidence we're all living in hell
and nothing but forgetting ever seems to help
it's all falling down tonight
everything runs and hides
where did i lose my mind
i'll look for it there in the morning
everyone is turning
into something else
i don't want to be myself
is it just coincidence we're all living in hell
and nothing but forgetting ever seems to help
we pretend to take it well
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20. |
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when the sky opens up i will wash away
with all of the other useless things
we will find a home in a useless place
and find a way out of time and space
i don't wanna be alone
i don't wanna be here at all
when the ground caves in i will fall to the floor
with all of the things that don't care anymore
we will find a home in the center of the earth
and grow back up when we finally learn
i don't wanna be alone
i don't wanna be here at all
i don't wanna to be alone
i don't wanna be here at all
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21. |
bully
02:42
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do the parks get empty at midnight
i stay awake but i can’t even wake up
rules are rules except when they’re not
it looks so easy to be able to break them
who told you, you can ride my bike
just because your feet are bigger than mine
who told you to turn it to ashes
we don’t even have the worst of it
how long can i spend underwater
i’m in a joke that i can’t get out of
everybody’s laughing and i laugh too
i’m just one more to add to the sum
who told you, you can ride my bike
just because your feet are bigger than mine
who told you to turn it to ashes
why did you listen and why didn’t you stop it
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22. |
indefinite
01:43
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don't let me unthread, i won't make it
leave me back for dead, i can't take it
i'll never be the one at the end
i'll wind up negative
i'll always try my best
i'll wind up negative
indefinite
stand by the open room, i will want to
stay where you always move, i will haunt you
i'll never be the one at the end
i'll wind up negative
i'll always try my best
i'll wind up negative
in every sense
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23. |
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now that i’m mine, what do i do
don’t get me wrong, i’m yours too
but it’s kind of hard to be in two places
and i’m just starting to recognize faces
now that i’m found, i don’t want to lose
don’t get me wrong, i’m still lost without you
but i don’t want you to live inside my screen
i want you to be right here next to me
i know that i can be mean
and i know that i say stupid things
i know that i can be mean
but you’re still everything to me
when you get here, i’ll know what to do
i’ll wake up right next to you
but it’s kind of hard right now to say goodnight
when you get here we won’t have to say goodbye
i know that i can be mean
and i know that i say stupid things
i know that i can be mean
but you’re still everything to me
this is an apology
i’m sorry that i don’t say sorry
this is an apology
but you’re still everything to me
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24. |
write the ending
02:51
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do you want to open up the window
we can watch the weather go by
let’s forget about the reason why not
it’s always difficult to talk about it
i will write the ending
i will sing the song
i will go out of town
i will not go on
the walls talk when they get angry
no one listens to her when she cries
and it’s so hard to make a lie true
but it’s nice to know that you care
i will write the ending
i will sing the song
i will go out of town
i will not go on
i will watch the ending
i will sing along
i will stay where you are
i will not go on
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